Hopeless to Hopeful! My Roller Coaster Life! (6)

Hopeless to Hopeful! My Roller Coaster Life! (6)

Hello Readers! Looks like I am getting to kindle some rays of hope in your lives too! So, here are some more sharing’s! Thank you, once again, for your kind comments and good wishes! Please keep them coming!
Taking up from my last post; there is always two sides to everything, every situation and every coined! And, the most wonderful thing is that, that all of us have the choice, to focus our attention onto that one positive side of the situation we can find during this dark time; and soon the negative situation will slowly become less potent and painful, and one will learn to find the strength to bare or deal with the unhelpfulness of this situation!
However, I do understand, when the going gets tough, and the situation is really bad, painful and grim; one nearly often forgets even the thought, belief, energy or even the wish to look for a positive side of the miserable situation one is in! At this time, one typically doesn’t find the will, courage or energy, to get oneself to hunt and thereafter to focus on that one optimistic thing, that is hidden somewhere in the negative situation, when difficulty, loss and pain repeatedly take over your life!
Yet, believe you me, if you do manage to read this blog to the end, there could be a strong, positivity hunting tip there for you too!
Just wanted to share with you dear Readers, that even after, having to repeatedly go through torturous and devastating trauma, I somehow, managed to not only find a positive hope in every pitch dark moment of my life, but, also, got myself to cling to that ‘found again hope’, with my whole little being!
So, in my last post, I proudly spoke of the extreme hard work I put in to become a renowned Satirist; but, with great pain, I have to tell you that nothing of that sort happened! Despite putting in 7 to 8 hours of continues practise each single day for nearly 8 years, I failed miserably in reaching my goal and fulfilling my one and only dream that was keeping me living!
For, at the end of these 8 long years, I finally got to know, from my teacher, that, I never possessed, the natural gift of music, required to become a performing artist of any worth!
You can maybe, imagine my plight! It was like, all over again, my entire life directly plunged into a bottomless dark hole, with no further hope or positive energy left, to either accept or even think of turning over another leaf to go on living! I had spent so much time trying to achieve a goal, for which I never had the required skills; and, I had made this aim my sole reason of living! And, now the road of my life had come to a complete stop! Deep dark depression and extreme hopelessness and despair engulfed me; making me totally listless, disheartened and I began to lose the will to live!
But, the only saving grace, at this horrible time, was, my parent’s consistent efforts, to keep pushing me to the best of their ability, coaxing and motivating me; at times forcefully, and at other times, lovingly and gently, to get me to focus my attention on all the positives that they could find in me and around me; so I could, once again, gather back my courage and energy, to get on with life, and help me build new dreams which I could follow!
For, very often I only get to meet parents of blind children, who are themselves, in uncontrollable emotional trauma, which completely destroys their blind children! Please do forgive me for saying this: but, such parents are only selfishly thinking about themselves; and, are not even considering, how their negative behaviour and thoughts are damaging their already devastated disabled child!
Thus, once again, here, I wish to salute my super wonderful parents, and thank God over and over again, for making me their daughter!
Although, I now realize, they too then must have been under tremendous agonizing stress and pain, having to witness and share their beloved daughter’s disastrous and heart-breaking situation and trauma; yet, they buried their own fear and torture, and devotedly took on the extraordinary mission, to push me along, with increased enthusiasm, to get me to develop my knowledge and skills, in every possible area, so I could become an accomplished, sought-after and great human being!
I must tell you here that, I was always an obedient daughter, and in addition, I could never ever even imagine, to cause any further pain or anguish, to my beloved and extremely loving parents any more than what I had already unfortunately and unwillingly caused them! So I simply went along with whatever they wished me to do, despite my aching heart. And, I am, today, so glad I did so!
For that is how, I gathered the courage and strength, to drag myself out of the dreadful depression and hopelessness that had collected inside of me; and once again, I dared to dream new dreams again!
So, keep a sharp look out for my next post, for getting to read about, what these exciting and amazingly wild dreams actually were!
Well, there is a very popular saying: “Whatever Happens, happens for the best”! I completely agree and truly believe that this saying and observation is absolutely true! Often, when things are not going our way, most of us usually, desperately hope and pray for these difficult times to go away quickly! Because, none of us willingly want to remain in a situation, where life seems to be treating us badly; but, I can only assure you, that if the worst of my worse challenges did not happen, I certainly would not have been writing these blog for you!
Yes, certainly, there are huge challenges around me even at this moment, but, still, I do most honestly say, that I would never have chosen a different life for myself, even if were given a chance!
So dear Readers, please do believe me and what the wisdom of the past says; for, this certainly, like for me, will also give you the power to get through your very own challenges in a slightly easier way!
So, for today, I wish to take your leave, with a promise to come back with more!
Do keep your comments and questions coming; so I too can get more motivated!
Preeti signing off for now!
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Keep smiling till then!