Hopeful from Hopeless! My Roller Coaster Life! )9)
Hello Readers! Just made a big positive change to the name of this series! Did so, to shift our focus to the positive; rather than starting with our focus on the negative word! A dear friend just very kindly pointed out my major mistake out to me! Deeply grateful to her for being so kind! This is exactly, why we do need to keep our senses wide open, so we can pick up positivity from everywhere! Power of words that we use all the time, have a profound impact upon us and others around us! Change made, and I am now looking out for that big positive shower upon us all!
So now, back to the blog! Your wait is over! Here comes the next part of my sensational existence!
I refer to my life journey as a sensational one; because, despite my flight through life, being filled with constant horrifying suffering, pain, disappointments and repeated failures; I somehow always managed to find myself in so many amazingly happy, dramatic and exciting situations! These probably gave me the power and courage, to live through, and stay alive, throughout countless challenges and rough situations that I always found myself in!
Incidentally, I guess, I, too, just like anyone of you, must have also been certainly designed, to be born to be a fun loving, happy and positive person; with a natural instinct to be inevitably attracted, towards thrilling, happy and amusing situations and happenings! Hence, in the past, and even now, whenever, I found or, even today, find myself trapped in the middle of any horrifying and challenging situation for too long; I somehow seem to, very soon, become very sad, suffocated, impatient and board with my pain and suffering! And, at such a time, still is and always was, when, I try and tried, my best, to search and look for, and always seem to manage to find, some fantastic exciting or thrilling happening or opportunity available around me, towards which I encourage and motivate myself to put all my attention and focus upon, and thus, I gather up the strength to help me survive the pain and trauma going on around me!
However, this delightful and positive thing, activity or event, must surely be irresistibly attractive and pleasing to my senses, something which totally demands, captures and holds my complete single-minded attention and focus unwaveringly! For, only, then it has the power to successfully push away my existing negativity, into the background; and, make the positivity arising out of this newly found activity, to take over my entire being; resulting in getting me recharged and putting me back into the saddle once again!
And, sure enough, while I got / get busy, feeling good and enjoying myself with my new found occupation, I suddenly seem to find the strength, to bare and get through, the ongoing suffering and pain that still exists around me!
And, before I realize what is happening, the stress simply becomes a lot less painful and hard to bare, at times, it sorts of vanishes, and then, soon it stops to bother me too much; the pain and challenge, becomes a part of the past, just like everything always does! Leaving me a stronger, braver and more Hopeful person after all!
Well, dear reader, getting back to my real life story, you may remember, I was really down in the dumps most of my growing up life, facing constant rejections, failures; emotional, physical and psychological set-backs almost all the time, here is what kept me going and hence I am here to share my story with you today!
I got a plentiful doze of:
Love, guidance, encouragement and instilling of strong good values, spirituality, and deep understanding from my parents, pure love, devotion and deep friendship from my little brother, eating, an admiring best friend, watching good old time Hindi films and also the film: The Sound of Music, day dreaming, mostly about romance, usually defining the kind of prince charming who would fall in love with me and marry me, so I too, could live happily ever after!
And here are some memories of my teenage real life crushes and love stories! Some were one-sided affairs, and some were two-sided ones as well! And must say most collapsed, at the mention of marriage! For in those good old days, according to my strongly instilled values, should have concluded with the tying of the solid knot of marriage!
And, as it is with of the young hearts, each time any of these came to an unhappy end, it broke my young heart; just like these tragedies bring that terrible sadness, depression, heartache and a complete loss of energy to go on living life at all of us!
I too dealt with these heart breaks, just like anyone of us from our times! Listening to sad songs and singing alone with them! Crying a little, not going out, sad daydreaming, feeling that my world had come to an end!
But, as I mentioned above, I would soon, just in a few days, get bored and impatient of living such a dull and unhappy life, that I would find some excuse to tell myself that all said and done, whatever happened was for my best, and, I, anyway would have to make a compromise by ultimately marrying this fellow!
And then, following this thought, quickly I would list out his negative points and thank my stars to have removed him from my life! Once this was done, I would put on some peppy positive and happening music and get to dance around on the same, and would sing along on top of my voice!
And, all the negativity would vanish from inside and around me in a wink! And, I would be back as my happy and bubbling self, looking for the next mister dashing and handsome all over again!
Am stopping just here, for there are already many tips and sharing’s above, and I would like to leave you with a smile and lots of hope for now!
Looking forward to all your encouraging and warm comments and questions again!
As usual, I can be reached on:
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Do keep your thoughts flowing towards me!