Hopeless to Hopeful! My Roller Coaster Life! )8)
Hello Readers! I am back with my promised 8th post, for which I had asked you to hold on!
Do go back to my last post to really enjoy reading this one!
Just a small recap of my latest dream then: which was finding my dream life partner!
Well, as I had mentioned, the moment I did embark on this journey, I very soon realized that no one wanted to marry me just because I was blind!
Here seemed to be another failure waiting to get me?
This was simply too much for me to take! Not again, I thought! And, with these thoughts racing around in my mind; I declared war against this new challenge! I told myself, that I was now going to look for a husband by hook or by crook! Arrange marriage or love marriage, I was going to explore all methods that were available to me to find this great life partner for myself!
In fact, in the meantime, my grandfather, on his own accord, published a matrimonial advertisement in a leading newspaper for me without mentioning my blindness! Certainly this got me countless proposals! But, I soon found out, that the moment the proposing parties got to know that I was blind, they vanished into thin air, within a blink of an eye!
Some of these prospective bridegroom families and guys, who connected with my parents or came home to see me; offered polite refusals, but, most were outright rude, and some raced out of our home as fast as their legs could carry them! One father and to be bridegroom son; were so terrified of my blindness, that in their mad hurry to get away from me and out of our second floor apartment, they ran towards the window instead of the front door to accomplish their escape! And, mind you, this bridegroom son himself had a physical disability! Yet, even for them, considering marrying their own disabled son to a blind girl was to be avoided like the plague!
This comedy went on for a few months; mostly I would find this whole thing funny, but at other times I would go into a dark depression as well! Often, I would wonder; was I that evil, unpleasant and horrible, that not even the worst men wanted to even think of marrying me!
I probably have mentioned this before: most of the dreams I chased never came true! But, after the above experiences, it was becoming evident, that I was forever destined to fail, at anything that I attempted!
These thoughts kept constantly trying to pull me down all over again; but, this time I frantically fought back the urge to give up! My complete attention was on the fact that I just have to continue my hunt till I find my mister right! No matter what people thought or said! And, I had also decided, that I would only agree to marry, the man, who exactly fitted the image that I always had in my head, of my dream life partner!
And, certainly, I continued to do so! And, as you may know, I am today, a happy grandmother of 3 adorable grandchildren! Hence, I did find success; but, you will have to hold on for the next part of the story of how I got here, as this post will, otherwise get too long!
Today, I am still alive and kicking! After all, that I have been through, I am delighted to say, that I am a happy, enthusiastic and a positive person, even to this day! And, I am most hopeful that I will continue to be like this for as long as I am around!
So, I strongly suggest, to know how you too can, generate your very own positive energy, to find your very own courage and motivation to get through any of your own difficult, dark and down moments; do keep reading about the little ways I used to keep myself afloat during my tough times, and managing to reach one success after the other! Therefore, keep a sharp look out for all my coming posts!
However, I still continue to fail, but, lately, corrective actions are easier for me to take! Whenever, I find myself stuck or in the wrong, it has become so much easier for me to take the required remedial actions without too much inner conflict! However, it takes a lot of practise and it is very important and curtail, that you do have someone real out there to support, motivate and hand hold you through those inevitable ever present challenging times we all seem to have around us all the time!
And, dear Readers, I am here for you to do just that!
I am talking about ‘inner conflict’, because, our inner voice, our self-talk, our ego and our pride, are the hardest one to master! We very often go on living a life that is not good for us, or a situation that is causing us so much pain and stress, just because of the thoughts that keep nagging us! Some of these I am mentioning below!
thoughts like:
“What will people, think and say, when they find out that I have finally realized, that I have actually made a mistake, by stubbornly opposing their good advice, and am now reversing my decision!”
“I told you so! I always knew you will fail! You always think you are very smart! See the damage you have done, which could have been avoided, had you listened to me!
And, also, when you have to be with people who go around with a sarcastic grin on their faces, indicating that you are stupid and foolish, and that too, during your down times!
However, such dialogues and arrogant expressions, have long stopped bothering me! Yes, in the past, all this used to bother me a lot; but, they don’t anymore! For, I have realized, that if I let such unimportant things hold me back, I will have wasted that one life that I have to live!
I would rather live a happy, peaceful and carefree life; feeling on top of the world most of the time!
Note: For those of you who have not read all my earlier posts: to enjoy and get maximum out of my ‘Hopeless to Hopeful’ post series, please do go back to my blog and read them from the start!
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So dear Readers, bye for now, till we meet again through my 9th post!
Take care and keep smiling!
And, thank you so very much for all your encouraging comments!
Preeti signing off!
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